the First

Formerly, when everything went normally

Nothing wrong with this feeling

Now, when everything becomes so different

There’s something which is really a big mistake that must be changed

But why is it so difficult to be changed?

I don’t know, he looks so different now

And unfortunately, it makes me to enlarge my mistake

I admitted he’s so wonderful

I admitted he’s so …

Ah, I don’t know anymore

Dunno, it’s very difficult to admit that he’s so different now

And it’s very difficult to admit that I am formerly ‘till now … ‘like him’ …

The eyes

The most frightening thing

Signed something got in the deepest heart by each creatures

I’m afraid seeing his eyes

I’m afraid seeing his face

I’m afraid facing him

I’m afraid meeting him

But, there’s a feeling which oppresses if I don’t meet him

There’s something which wants disturbing out if I don’t see him although from far distances

Sometimes I feel that God’s unfair

Why was I not given a bravery to see him from near?

Why was I not given a power to see his eyes, pierced and dived its deepness

To be able to feel how his feeling’s to me in real

Dunno why, I feel I’m so stupid

I know that he doesn’t have the same feeling with me

I know that

I know he does

I’m confused too

I’m confused why I can be like this?

Why I can like him without expecting anything?

How if eventually I really ‘like’ him?

God, I really hope I can forget him at all